- Throw Me to the Wolves -

2026-07-03

Explosion

I suppose I should say something here since I made the blog post. Ummmmm. Hi i'm ester and i'm going to edit this later. Today I made the blog section of the website and gave it a cool code background and figured out how to center stuff more fully. Yayayayayya. Going forward I suppose I'll try and vent more openly about stuff here since if you're coming to read these you'll probably care what I have to say!

I wish my psychiatrist wasn't so slow to get me a refill I've been out for like a week now. I love feeling inadequate because I can't tell if the medicine even works at helping me focus!!!!!!! Little worm in my head that tells me I'm imagining any effects it might have. raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh

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